Friday, October 28, 2005

2 weeks and counting...

It is official. I am due in 2 weeks. I hope the baby comes by then. I went to my weekly doctors appointment on Wednesday and my cervix is thinned about 50% but no dialation yet. The baby has dropped, which means I am in severe pain in my pubic area. I just thought I was uncomfortable before. It hurts to walk and stand up, but it will all be over soon and I will have my sweet baby in my arms. I asked my doctor about how much longer he thought and he said probably 2 weeks. Hubby and I are having sex as much as possible to try and hurry along the process. Sex at this point is not the most comfortable thing that I have ever done, but it is supposed to help start labor, when of course your body is ready.

Painting in the nursery has begun. The walls have been primed and are awaiting their coats of paint, which should happen this weekend. Mine and baby's bags are packed for the hospital. I have lists of people for my hubby to call when we go to the hospital. Now we just wait.

I know some of this might have been TMI for some of you, but I just wanted to update everyone on what was going on.

Thursday, October 20, 2005

Memory Lane

I have been strolling down memory lane lately. Hubby and I have been unpacking boxes and sorting out the trash and things that we can live without and repacking the things that we really want to keep from our past. I have several boxes of stuff from my school days, some of it as early as elementary school. I still have letters from friends and boy friends and every card I have ever received. I still have the things that I won at the fair as a child as well as stuffed animals that were given to me. I have receipts for my prom dresses and receipts for my class ring, which was stolen along with the rest of my jewelry last year. I have movie tickets for every movie I have ever seen. I think you get the idea, I am a saver, a pack-rat if you will. I keep anything that may be sentimental. That was all fine and dandy except I don't have room for all of those momentos now, it is time to clean the clutter and eliminate some things from the past. I don't need every card or letter that anyone has ever written me. I started on Tuesday night sorting throught the memories, funny how our mind forgets things that at the time they happened were so important. I read letters that I hadn't touched in 15 or more years. Remember signing your letters LYLAS? I had plenty of those stashed among my things. I wonder where those people are today, you know the ones you went to school with and you vowed to never lose touch. It was hard remembering some of things, like my ex's. It brought back memories of the pain and heartache that I have endured (and caused) over the years. But that is all behind me now, I am a person than I was back then, some of those experiences and people helped make me into the person I am today. I wonder if most of those people would know me if they saw me now. Would I know them? A few of them I still keep in touch with, but for the most part they have faded from the picture of my life, as I have from theirs. I wonder if they kept the letters and cards that I sent to them? Anyway, I have condensed my three boxes of memories to one box that will be packed away in our attic until who knows when.

Today is also my unanniversary. I got married for the first time 10 years ago today. Funny how time flies. I am so thankful that I am not still married to him, nor do I have any idea where he is or what he is doing. I wonder if I crossed his mind today? Hopefully he is somewhere sitting, crying and feeling pitiful for all the shit that he put me through in our marriage, no really I wish him nothing but the best. This day makes me thankful and happy that I divorced him and married my wonderful hubby and am pregnant with his child.

All this strolling on memory lane makes me want to crank up Nickelback's Photograph and sing to the top of my lungs. TTFN and LYLAS and oh yeah we will always be BFF.

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

Lions and tigers and bears oh my!

Yes I am talking about the baby's nursery. It is still unfinished. The room has to be cleared of all the boxes of holiday decorations, which need to be in the attic, a coat of primer and paint still need to applied to the walls and the new celing fan needs to be installed. Who would like to volunteer to come and help get these things done? My hubby seems to be depressed lately, which I completely understand, it seems we are having some financial problems and he is feeling really burdened, especially with a new baby coming soon. Anyway his worrying and depression has taken away his desire to get the nursery done. Anytime I go in there and start working, he fusses, I don't need to be doing that. No, maybe I don't but someone needs to be doing it. Maybe this weekend he will feel inspired to go in there and work. Maybe I should pretend that I am going to call my family and see if they will come over and help. Surely that will get him off his ass and get him to work.

I have been washing baby's new clothes and blankets and sheets, trying to get his stuff ready for his arrival. I still have to pack our bags for our hospital stay. There is so much to do and not enough hours in the day to get it all done. I am going to have to get to work on the things that I need to get done, I have less than a month left before my due date of November 11.

I had another ultrasound on Monday to see how big he is. Well he is big, he weighs nearly 7 lbs. I go back to the doctor on Tuesday of next week and we will find out the doctors opinion of the baby's size and whether they want to induce early or wait and see what happens. I am getting anxious and ready to meet my baby.

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

Happy Blogaversary to me!

I have been blogging for over a year now. I missed the actual anniversary day, but that isn't important. I have actually started something and kept it up (although slackly at times) for a year. I have also managed to keep it a secret from anyone who really knows me, except my best friend. She helped me get this thing started. Hopefully soon I will have more time to post about the exciting things going on in my life. For now celebrate my one year anniversary!