Sorry I haven't written much lately, I just don't have much to write about and even less time to write about it. I have thought about just deleting this blog and disappearing from the blog world. I am not a good writer, I am not a faithful writer and I only have a few readers. Then when I think about it I get sad. I feel like I know some of you personally, although we have never met. We have been together through my pregnancy, through the births and raising of our child(ren), through disappointments and heartaches, through good times and bad. I have prayed for many of you and I know that you have done the same for me. I have even cried for some of you. I look forward to your comments and I love to read your blogs and take a peek into your worlds. I love the pictures of your children, dogs, new shoes, vacations, etc. This is not a plea to get everyone to say nice things about me, it is simply to let you all know what is going on. Maybe I will be back soon, out of my slump and ready to write. I will be checking in with you all soon.

Father's Day

Just wanted to wish all the Father's a LATE Happy Father's day! We had a wonderful weekend. Hubby enjoyed having his daughter all weekend. He really loved his movie that I made for him and his other gifts, too. I wish every weekend could be as nice as this one was.

Saturday I was a little bummed out. Father's Day is not an easy holiday for me. I tried not to feel too sorry for myself though and instead showered my hubby and children with love and attention. Sometimes it isn't all about me!

Randomness, with bullets

• The babe is sick and he has been since last Monday. He has a cold complete with a cough, congestion and a runny nose. FUN! I called his dr yesterday to see if there was anything other that Tylenold Cold and Cough and Claritin that I could give him for the cough and congestion and the nurse said I needed to bring him in, so I did. After the finger prick, blood draw thing I was told that he has a virus! WELL DUH! I was trying to tell your nurse that on the phone. I still had to pay the $40.00 co-pay, which I really didn't have!
• Since the babe has been sick, he refuses to sleep in his bed, so for the past week and a half he has been sleeping with hubby and I. Which means that I have not been sleeping well.
• A co-worker's fiance was killed in Iraq this week. What do you say to someone? I just hugged her and told her that I am here for her. Please keep her and his family and all of our troops in your prayers.
• Father's day is coming up on Sunday. Father's day is always a tough one for me, since I lost my dad at such a young age. I always try to make it special for my hubby, even though he didn't feel the need to make Mother's day special for me. Thank goodness I don't hold grudges! I have bought him a few things, but his big gift, the one that I have been working my butt off on is a movie that I have made for him. It is a lot and I do mean a LOT of pictures that start with the birth of his daughter. We do not have many baby pictures of her, because when hubby got divorced she kept most of those pictures. So I had MIL to dig out some pics and I even enlisted the help of our daughter to bring me some pics so I could scan them and use them in the movie. I have managed to keep it all a secret from him, so I think he will be surprised. It was really more work than I had originally thought it would be, but he is worth it!
• My neice had her baby on Sunday. A little girl, 7 lbs 2 ozs. She is just precious. I hope my neice will be a good mother, but I have serois doubts, she is so much like my sister and I see history repeating itself. I wish her all the luck in the world. This parenting thing is hard.
• I do not want any more children. Holding my new neice was nice, but it did not spark a desire in me to have another one, none of those motherly feelings came rushing back to me. I did not hear my biological clock ticking. All I could think about was how much work a newborn is and how sad that she is not even going to try to breastfeed her. I am glad that the question has finally been answered in my head, now I don't feel so bad about it when I tell people that I have no desire to have another one.
• We should be getting a closing date on our refinance loan for our house! WOOHOO! I will be glad when that is over. 2 months with no house payment. I hope we can go ahead and get started on Christmas and the kiddos birthdays (one in November and one in January).
• I need a hairstyle, but I cannot find anything that I really like. I also need a new hairdresser. We stopped going to the lady that we had been using because she hardly ever works and it was really hard to get an appointment at a time that was convenient for us. How do you find a new hairstyle and hairdresser that doesn't charge an arm and a leg for a cut? The last time that I went to the local beauty school to get a trim, it took 2 hours and the girl was real afraid to cut my hair, while I was in the chair and she was cutting my hair she was telling her classmate that she really didn't like doing haircuts! HELLO, I can hear you, please don't say things like that when you are in the middle of a haircut!
• I think that about sums up what is going on in my life, sounds fun doesn't it?

Taking action

This post has been swirling in my head since last Friday, but this is the first opportunity that I have had to actually write it. I had to run an errand for work last Friday afternoon. I had to go to the MEGA OFFICE SUPPLY STORE and pick up some toner. I wheeled into a parking space and when I was getting out of my car I noticed that in the car next to me was a woman in the passenger seat and 2 little children in the backseat. One of the children looked to me maybe 7 or 8 months old and the older one might have been about 2 or 3, not any older than 3. The younger child did not appear to be buckled into his carseat. I am not even sure that it was really a carseat that he was sitting in. He was forward facing and it looked like he was in a carrier, rather than a carseat. At any rate, he was not strapped into anything because he was sitting straight up in it reaching over the side to try and get his bottle that he had dropped. The other child was not in any kind of carseat or booster, he was just sitting on the seat. As I went into the store I thought about what I should do. Should I call the cops and tell them? Would I sound like a raving lunatic if I did that? Should I approach the lady in the car, and if so what would I say to her? I got the toner and left the store and the car was still there. Instead of doing anything, I just left and came back to work. That has really bothered me. My daughter rode in her booster seat until she was actually a little taller than the recommended 48" tall or whatever it is. I am a firm believer in properly buckled up children in a vehicle. Not only is it safer for a child to be in a carseat, it is also the law. How do you know when to call authorities or get involved? What woud you have done?