Too much, yet nothing

So much is going on, yet not much that I can write about on here. Nothing really exciting is happening and I guess that could be a good thing. I will put these in bullets to help navigate through them.

• We have to refinance our house soon, our APR will become adjustable in the next few months, so I have got to start that process soon and decide who we will refinance with. Any suggestions or anyone that we should not go with?
• Our daughter is sick. She has some sort of virus or something. She barfed in my car last night while hubbby was taking her home. Actually they had already gotten to her mom's, but of course mommy dearest wasn't there yet, she was at the store and on her way. Why is it that we have to be on time bringing her back, yet we are not given the same courtesies? Oh well, that is a rant for another day. Anyway hubby was waiting in the car with her until her mom got home and she said that she wasn't feeling well and she thought her fever was back, so he asked her if she wanted to get out of the car and get some fresh air. Of course she did not want to do that and then it happened. Grilled cheese and chicken noodle soup all in the seat, floor, everywhere. Hubby has not thrown up in 30 years, but he almost did last night having to ride to the car wash with that awful smell. We cleaned it as best we could after he got home. We Lysoled and Febreezed the hell out of it, but it still stinks. At least he is driving my car right now, so I have not had to smell it.
• Hubby is driving my car because one of my tires has a vibration or something in it. He wants to get rid of my car and me just drive his car and he just get something older to drive until we can afford another car payment. I really love my car, but it is 11 years old and I am really paraniod that something major is going to happen to it and we really cannot afford to get a new car right now, so I think I am going to let hubby sell it and get himself something cheap to drive. The thought of getting rid of it makes me sick to my stomach. It has been the best car that I have ever had. I have been everywhere in that car. I have never kept a car as long as I have kept this one and I am really attached to it. I love my car, but maybe it is time for a change.
• It is time to start planning for vacation. You know the vacation that we cannot afford to go on, but we are going anyway. Yeah that is the one. I think we are going to the beach for Memorial day weekend and we cannot decide if we want to go back to the beach for our weeklong vacation or if we want to go to the mountains. I found a few really nice places to stay that are not too expensive for the week. I am just ready to make some plans so I will have something to look forward too. We did not go on vacation last year, and I NEED a vacation.
• Things are going on at work, but I cannot write about them here. Just know that some things are good, some things are not so good.
• My niece is having a girl. I am so happy that she is not having a boy. I know, I know, I am crazy, you don't have to tell me. I cleaned out the babe's closet on Saturday and got together some blankets and neutral colored onesies and things for her that the babe has outgrown. I also have some outfits and exersaucers and stuff that I am going to sell to try to make a few extra bucks. Wish me luck on that, I am not at selling things.

I think maybe that has you updated, if I think of anything else I will add it later.

I want my Peter Pan

Okay so I am sure that you all have heard about the peanut butter recall by now. I am so upset. I eat a peanut butter sandwich nearly every day for lunch. My favorite peanut butter is Peter Pan Honey Roast. I have 3 jars of it in my desk drawer, yes I know a bit obsessive. Anyway I can't eat it because it has been recalled and I don't want to get sick! The worse part is that you cannot find any un-recalled jars anywhere. I want to know when my peanut butter and I will be together again. Hubby in all his sweetness went to several stores Sunday to get my beloved peanut butter, but there is none to be found, so he bought me Jif. YUCK is all I can say. I have been eating it, but it isn't the same, it isn't even good to me. I know, I know that choosy moms and dads choose it, but I don't like it! Oh well, I guess it is better to be safe than sorry.

Me, weird?

I am dusting off this post from November 24, 2006. I have been tagged by Becky, but I had already done this one, so I will post it again for her.

6 Weird things about me:

1. I don't eat mayonnaise. We don't have any mayonnaise in our house.
2. I have to be covered up to go to sleep in the bed, no matter how hot it is. I cannot sleep without cover. I also have to have my feather pillow to go to sleep. I have to take it on vacation with us and anywhere that I will have to sleep.
3. I brush my teeth in the shower. It saves time.
4. I have never used or sold illegal (or legal) drugs.
5. I opted for a c-section instead of an induced vaginal birth because I had a major fear of labor and delivery. That was not the reason that it was an option, but that was the reason I decided to have it.
6. I have a fear of being put to sleep. I worked in the OR in college and it was a SCARY, SCARY place. I hope I never need surgery!

So there you go. Did you learn anything new about me? If you do this meme on your blog, just let me know so I can see if you are weirder than me.

Happy President's Day. I hope you all have the day off, I don't!

Happy Valentine's Day

I know this is a little early, but hey give me a break at least I remembered. How could I not remember, I am being bombarded from every which way with ads for Valentines day stuff and we all know that we must spend a fortune on our loved ones for this blessed holiday. I am not looking for anything for Valentine's day. I was not asked what I wanted, if I had been I would have simply replied a card. Honestly, I don't want the $75.00 bouquet of roses delivered to my office. I don't want my hubby to spend a small fortune on jewelry for me, of course it would be nice, but we don't have a small fortune for such things, and I don't need any more jewelry anyway. To me it is a pointless holiday. I guess if I were in the flower or greeting card or candy business I might disagree, but I am not. Tomorrow I will go to lunch with my hubby and give him his card and Hershey's dark chocolate kisses that I bought him. We will have supper with the kids of heart shaped grilled cheese sandwiches and soup and chocolate frosted cupcakes for dessert. We have gotten the kiddos a few small things and some candy for our daughter and some goldfish crackers for our son. If my hubby is a good boy and I can muster up the energy, maybe we can have some Valentine lovin' after I put the babe to bed. Whatever you do for Valentine's Day I hope you have a wonderful Wednesday.

It's gone, it's all gone

I got a phone call Wednesday afternoon from my hubby asking me to please go online and see if my daughter's cell phone had GPS capabilities because of course she has lost it, along with her new digital camera. Both of these were Christmas gifts, the phone from us and the camera from MIL. I did not want to get her a cellphone because she is too young for that responsibility, but hubby wanted to get it for her so he can get in touch with her. When we call her mom's house either they don't answer the phone or they have the ringer off and her mom leaves her cellphone in the car most of the time, so we can't get in touch with our daughter when she isn't with us. So hubby got her the Firefly phone for Christmas. She went to eat lunch with her mom and step-dad Wednesday and gave her mom her purse to put under the seat and they forgot to get it. Do you think that mom forgot her purse? Of course not, but she "forgot" to get our daughter's. Of course no one has turned it in and I don't expect that they will. If you found a purse that obviously belonged to a child wouldn't you turn it it? Hubby went by the restaurant that night and still no one turned it in. I just know when I take the kids anywhere I make sure when we leave that we have everything that we came with.

I am so pissed about this. I know that if she lost something expensive while with us that her mom had bought we would offer to replace it. Do you think we have had such an offer? We haven't and I am sure that we won't either. So there went at least $200.00 down the toilet, not to speak of the fact we can't get in touch with her when she isn't with us. Hubby asked if we should replace her phone and I told him no we should not. She should have been more responsible with it in the first place and it would not be gone. We don't have a lot of extra money and hubby is working a second job right now to try to help get ahead on a few things, so buying another cellphone is not an option. I told him that we should tell her that she can save up her money from our house and her moms and buy the new phone herself and maybe then she will take better care of it. I even told him that we could pay her a few bucks for doing things like picking up pine cones in the yard or helping with the laundry or dishes. I guess we will see what happens.

15 months

Can you believe that the babe is 15 months old? Me either. He is such a little toddler now. He walks everywhere. Every so often he will crawl around on the floor, but usually he is walking or more like running. He is so busy and into everything. He still isn't really talking, of course he makes lots of noise, just not many distinguishable words. He sounds like he is speaking in chinese or something. He says mama and dada and a few other things that you can understand, but most of the time it is some other language. He get so frustrated with us when he keeps telling us something and we just don't get it. He points and grunts ALOT! We go through the pantry trying to figure out what he wants, when we finally figure it out he gets so excited. He also knows the difference in the yes and no head shake. He is such a bog boy, where has my baby gone? He also has stopped watching the Wiggles as much. He prefers to watch Baby Einstein and Baby Mozart videos and Madagascar. We have tried so many other movies that we thought he might like and he will not watch them. Occasionally he will watch Shark Tale, but he prefers Madagascar. If you haven't seen it, watch it, it is a really cute movie. Before the nasty comments start or the hate emails I know already I am a horrible mother for letting my child watch TV at all, but hey I can't entertain him all the time.

For the past few weeks he has had some sleep issues. I thought we were over those when he finally started sleeping through the night, but I guess not. He has had separation anxiety REALLY bad the past few weeks and at night when I put him in the bed and leave the room he just screams his head off. So I would go back in and pick him up and sit in the rocking chair with him for hours sometimes before he would fall asleep. He was tired, but he is also very strong willed and he would not let himself go to sleep. I don't mind rocking him to sleep, but for 2 hours it was a bit much! I could not get anything done or get any rest myself. Then after I would put him in the bed he would wake up at the least little noise, like my knee popping! I started putting him in our bed and laying down with him to get him to sleep and then moving him to his bed, but even that would take hours some nights. So on Monday I decided I had enough. It was time to be the parent take some control. Crying it out worked before to get him sleeping through the night I prayed that it would work again. So Monday night he got his bath, brushed his teeth, we read some bedtime stories, said our prayers and then I tucked him in his bed, said goodnight, turned out the light and left the room. He screamed for about 2 minutes then he got quiet for a few minutes, then he screamed a little more, never more than 2 minutes. After about 10 minutes he was asleep and he did not wake up until 5, then we went and got him and put him in our bed. I don't mind sleeping with him for an hour or so in the mornings, but I don't want him to sleep with us every night and I can see that was where we were headed. Anyway last night was night 2 and he did just as well. Hopefully by the end of the week he won't cry at all when I leave him in the bed. I hate to hear him cry, it just breaks my heart. I feel like a new woman this week, having slept more for the past 2 nights than I have in weeks. WOOHOO for sleep!

It is happening

Something that I really feared is happening, I am gaining weight. Before I got pregnant I weighed 170 lbs. For me that was fat, I was out of shape and unhealthy. When I got pregnant I was diagnosed with gestational diabetes and I had to keep track of everything that I ate and count carbs and take my blood sugar 4 times a day. I was able to keep my blood sugar down with diet and exercise. I walked for about 20 minutes at least 5 times a week. After I had the babe, I breastfed and it was wonderful. I was back to my pre-pregnancy weight within 2 weeks and within about a month I weighed less than I did before I got pregnant. Don't get me wrong, I was still pudgy in the middle and I needed a good workout to get myself toned up, but I was smaller than I had been in years. I ate pretty much anything that I wanted and still didn't gain any weight! YAY, because I like to eat. I had gotten back in to a size 10 pants and down to 145 lbs.

Well I stopped breastfeeding in November and went back on regular birth control pills and the weight is slowly but surely coming back. My clothes are getting tight and I am scared to get on the scales. I know what I need to do, it is just so hard. I don't have a lot of time to exercise. I leave the house at 7:30 in the mornings and I am lucky to get home before 7 most nights, then I have to get everyone fed and the kitchen cleaned and things ready for the next morning. I guess I could get up even earlier than I already do and exercise, but there is no where that I can exercise at 5:30 in the morning in my house where I will not be disturbing someone's sleep. I could go walk, but it is like 30 degrees in the mornings here and it is mighty dark that early I might get hit by a car. I guess I could evercise at 9:30 or so at night after the babe goes to bed, but by then I am so tired I just want to go to sleep too. I have started back to drinking water all day long again. I have also cut my coffee back to one cup a day, maybe 2 on the weekends. I am trying to eat healthier, but it is so very hard. Do you all have any suggestions? I really do not want to gain this weight back.